I never had felt so out of place in my life... I looked like all those around me and yet I just didn't fit in... Most of my life was spent as a "distant outsider". You see growing up in hoco or Howard county made this identity crisis more of an issue. Especially in high school where the populations of Koreans was about 40%.
I was and still am known as a Twinkie or banana to all those born in Korea and raised in Korea kids that immigrated to the US.
Anyways... I have always had questions... So many questions and four years ago some of those questions were answered. Now I am curious is there new information or missing information. I am very blessed to be going on this journey and the weight of wanting to meet my foster and birth mother weighs on me everyday. I am hoping to make a few dreams of mine reality but I know my faith will carry me through it all. I put my trust in god and believe everything happens for a reason...so now four years later I am embarking deeper into this search and looking for some closure and peace of mind.
A journey becoming a reality and a trip that will change my life drastically. I am excited, nervous and excited some more... I thank god everyday for what he has given me and am thankful to work with catholic charities. The social worker there is phenomenal and very helpful. She helped me begin this process four years ago. Last year I had the opportunity to take this trip but was shut out. They only accept 20 applicants as I stated in an earlier blog post. This year is different I was accepted into the program and my feelings are the same. Mostly I just want to know basic stuff but, especially medical history. I like the programs name"happy trail" it leads me to believe the ending will be a happy one.
Anyhow... I'll be in Seoul,Korea in just 3 days! Peace out till I reach my destination.
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